Just as a forewarning, I'm probably about to become really depressed in a few days so lookout. To make a long story short, I have to go back 'home' in a week, as in America. And Jack has to stay here in Finland. It's only for 2 months but meh. It's gonna suck.

But since I don't delve into deep personal feelings (about my real life situations) on the web, expect either a lot of emo and/or rage filled - Youtube/interwebz related rants. That'll help me ease the ugh. Possibly. Strama, anyone?

I think because of my current situation, it's making me a downer about everything. Just looking at everything here on the interwebz as a whole and what some people do, it just makes me sad how pathetic some things/people can be. But at the same time, it also makes me happy to at least know I'm not like that. And I laugh and laugh.

Old grudges against some people boil up in my head. What can I say, I am a professional grudge-holder; But when something happens that gets me down or pissed, those feelings come back stronger then ever.

I have an idea though... I recently got hooked on a song that kind of releases anger/sadness at the people who caused such feelings in a positive kinda way. Well like... positive yet somewhat cruel and evil. But it's cute and subtle. I think I'm going to make a video of it for my new account. basically it's going to be my feelings towards everyone.... Everyone from all varieties of fans, friends, haters, supporters, backstabbers, posers, thieves, acquaintances... everyone.

It's not what you think though. While it's a song to all those people, it's not like it's some 'Teh Stream' video, or friend tribute, or a 'response video' to the haters. The last in particular would be stupid. But it's just going to be more like... well... how I feel! In general! And trust me, it's more of a positive theme. It won't be emo-tastic.

Despite all I mentioned above... the sadness, the anger, the pathetic people and all those who've gone out just to try and judge or hurt me, making videos to this day still makes me happy. Drawing as well. I love creating and imagining things up. Does anyone even know the reason I even STARTED animating? This isn't too personal a story I don't think.

Well for those who don't know, Jack and I made the 'ShadowLeggy' account together, just for the sake of watching and rating videos. That was the last time I was in Finland before now. After that time together I had to go back home. After a month or so of being apart, I was kind of getting eaten up by depression. Life had seriously gotten boring and sad. We talked online and on the phone of course, but it wasn't the same. Then I remembered the account we had made, and I basically started making videos to ease the pain of loneliness, and it helped. Making videos and drawing pretty much saved me from other wise going crazy XD So in a fucked up retarded kinda way, drawing and making videos has a special place in me that I'm glad I was able to find.

I don't care if I'm good at it or not.
I don't care if people don't like them.
I don't care if I'm popular for it.
I don't care if people wanna beat me at it.
I don't care if anyone IS better then me at it.

I do it for fun.
I do it because I love to.
I do it to help myself feel better at bad times.

To anyone who's ever thought or said otherwise, I don't care, because you are wrong. Live in ignorance for all I care. It doesn't bother me.

If you wanna defeat me or surpass me, go for it. I don't care. This doesn't even come to me as a contest. Not in the least bit. The only one who has made me seem 'higher up' or thinks this is a contest is YOU.

Expect more later... trust me. XD

-Leggy